Fear, Frustration, And Worry

I can't deny my fear for failure. I worried for not having much more money and don't know how to acquire it. Failure is imminent for me.

Fear, frustration, and worry make my body grew restless. I feel like having a cold and flu every time I have those feelings and they immobilize me.

How I can escape from these reality? Now the main things that in my mind are about how to get much money in a short time. Because my time limit is nigh. Because there are so much expenses that on hold and need to be paid. Because my room rent due date  need to be paid. Because my sister room rent due date need to be paid. Because our family debt need to be paid. Because I need food to eat next month. Because I need money to marry my girlfriend.

I complaining for every problems and focusing myself to the problems. I hate myself for not having a good life like many peoples out there. I despise myself and blame others, especially my family, for not nurturing me with plenty of goods and money. Problems are my main focus now.

"You can complain because roses have thorns, or you can rejoice because thorns have roses." Ziggy

Frustration is the thing that almost of us can't overcome. We frustrate for many things;lack of food, lack of money, our relationships, job, unfriendly Boss in work place, and many other things in every day of our life. The main question is, do we really need to frustrate?.

I know that we don't really need to be frustrated or complaining for our life. Life is go on whether we frustrate or not. We can't add a single hour to our life by worrying (Matthew 6:27). We need not to worry about anything and start believing that we can go through the problems.

The reality is harsh. It really not easy to not complaining and become frustrated, nor it easy to believe we can go through every obstacles without any effort and sweat. It sure hard. No, hardest thing to do for most of us. But should us surrender our life to frustration? No!. Life is too precious to spent on complaining and frustrated. Our life is much more important than problems. Our happiness is much more important than worrying. Don't spend your life rotting in the deepest pit of your problems. Believe that you better than that. I choose no for complaining, frustration, and worry. I choose to believe that my Creator had make a plan for something special for me and for others, because he create me magnificently (Psalm 139:14).

Let's say: 

"I can do all this through God who gives me strength" (Philippians 4:13).

* Picture from: http://www.thegospelcoalition.org/article/why-are-you-worried 

Love or Be Loved.

"People fall in love in mysterious ways", that's a part of Thinking Out Loud lyric from Ed Sheeran song that almost precisely depict how people get the feeling of love. I do agree with it but not quite agree.

Many of us know that it is really good to be loved, but that doesn't means people really knew how to love. How can we really perceive that love is really a good thing? How can we feel what love is ? when do we really love ? do we love? Is it just a perception from our senses? Do we really know what love is? Or maybe we just guessing that "it" was love?

We human fellow tend to mix our feeling for "be loved" with "love". We often loving other by insisting for return; Loving our life partner by demanding for care from him/her; Loving our spouse by asking for his/her sacrifices. Loving by asking for a return is not really a love, it called "Be loved". Let me put it straight, love is not about ourselves but about other, love is not a "me" side, love is not selfish.

In my christian perspective (Christ perspective), love is giving your life to others, loving your life partner by giving all of yourself to him/her, loving your family by giving your life to them, and loving your neighbor as you love yourself. Loving by sacrificing yourself. Maybe you think these are really hard to do, i agree with it, but not impossible to do.

Pardon for my bias perspective.

For me, love is not merely how we feel and act to people but love is how we living our life thoroughly by giving our full capability for others. The life of giving not asking. So now, stop asking for love. Learn to love. Don't wait for love, don't wait for be loved. Act your love now. Because I believe that we are already be loved by our Creator -- For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
His love is more than enough for us... ;).

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